Waiting ... Advent

My first full week of unemployment ... or is it retirement? I hope not. I really hope to find a nice part-time job again that fits well. I remain optimistic.

This is not easy for me. I have worked outside the home for many years, albeit, part-time. I've been a church secretary, non-profit office manager, and a director of a crisis pregnancy center. I've temped as a receptionist and secretary in manufacturing, law, insurance, sales, and trucking. A long work history filled with lots of good experience. I've lived in several cities, moves necessitated by hubby's job choices, which is why I haven't been at anything for very long periods of time.

I have been known to take a job quickly, without really considering too much whether it's a good fit, just to end the feeling of uselessness and the "OMG, I MUST WORK!!!" thinking that comes from some deep-rooted place within me. My daughter wisely counsels me that I must just be content to "be", something that is difficult. God may have a purpose, here. So maybe it is fitting, that at this time of Advent - waiting - I learn to wait patiently for the next step in my life ... even if it is forced waiting and somewhat riddled with anxiety ... like the Advent of long ago.